Run through the jungle

Frying fish laden with turmeric and chilli and salt, aromas thick with memories of my childhood rise. With them rise waves of self doubt, of sadness that seeps from the marrow of my bones. I’m choked by what-ifs and sliding-door scenarios.

In the garden, surrounded by life, growth, renewal, I hunch over, sucker-punched, winded. I gasp for air like I’m drowning. I am.

In the jungle of betrayal, thick with tangled questions, monsters lurk on every side whispering darkly of my failings, my inadequacies. The path to trust is jagged and broken, and requires faith in myself I cannot find.


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11 Comments on “Run through the jungle”

  1. You write so beautifully of pain. This line, especially, touched me: In the jungle of betrayal, thick with tangled questions, monsters lurk on every side whispering darkly of my failings, my inadequacies.
    Whatever is going on, sending love.

    • Thank you! ❤️ I’m so pleased that line resonated with you. It came to me early and the rest of the micro essay built itself around that.

  2. As usual, your writing is so sensory. There’s a lot of color here that anchors this firmly as your experience but the lack of detail lets me reference a time when I too was “sucker punched”. So I don’t need to know your details because I’m able to empathize with what you’re going through here (and sending virtual hugs).

    • Thank you, Michelle! ❤️ I’m so glad that leaving out specifics worked. I was worried that it might be distancing, but was hoping the reader would insert their own experience there.

  3. Dear Asha,

    Sending you lots of love and light. I do empathise with you as I’ve been through this so many times in the past.

    I love how you emote with your words. It pierces through the (readers) past pain and sets it on fire.

    You will be in my prayers and thoughts. Please take good care. Love.

    • Thank you, Natasha. That’s so kind of you. I’m pleased that you found connection with this piece too. I think it’s a universal theme.

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